Happy birthday to the best little boy I know

Today is my nephew's birthday he is 2 years old.
Man oh man it has been the best two years of my life knowing this little guy. It wasnt always like this, there were times that I cursed God for giving my sister a baby. I just couldnt comprehend why he would bless people who shouldnt be having children, children and the people who really wanted childres at times couldnt. I didnt understand why he would give her with a baby because she was so young, not in a good relationship with the baby's father, and definitaley not financially ready for anything let alone a baby. So I was against it all along.
On the day of his birth I went for sisterly support, I had to be there for her, even though I was so angry about it all. From the moment I held that baby in my arms I knew I would love him more than anything in my life.
I felt like I  just had to protect him from everything, especially every stupid decision my sister would make, because knowing her there would be alot. He was never a burden, he was a blessing a beautiful beautiful blessing. I didnt understand that until he was in my arms, it wasnt till then that I realized that God wouldnt curse anyone by giving them a child a child is always a blessing. Everything happens for a reason and I think he sent me this baby to realize that through all hardships there is always a silver lining. He has made me happy just by being alive, just by looking at me with those gorgeous eyes or by hugging me and wanting my attention at all times, he has made my life 100% happier. From the moment I held him in my arms I knew my life would change forever, he was my blessing. Holding him I felt like nothing else in the world mattered. Everything was going on around me but it was just us, us against the world. I guess I cant really describe that moment but I think this picture can...

My life has forever changed and no one can make me as happy as wolfie. That little boy has seen me through so much pain and when he smiles at me or hugs me nothing else seems important, every pain in my heart just melts away and Im so happy that it just comes from within him. I honestly feel like all the bad just melts away. I love him so much and I am so blessed to have him in my life. I want to be there for him always just as he has been there for me, even though he didnt know it. I cant ever imagine my life without him. If something where ever to happen to him I wouldnt know what to do. He is my little man he is my tiny blessing, he is my WOLFIE.

You all must think its so weird that I call him wolfie but it is me, what would you expect!!! The reasons behind his nickname are...

When my sister's water broke we were waching a movie about vampires, as you all know "commercially" vampires and werewolves are always enemies and since I was heavy into reading and watching anything about vampires, I had vampires and werewolves in my mind. When she was pregnant with him I was obsessed I became obsessed with werewolves, I loved them more than vampires and that says alot. So when Allie's water broke it was late at night and as we were driving to the hospital the only thing I kept thinking about was the huge, gorgeous full moon following us all the way to the hospital. When I think I go into like a fantasy world and I kept thinking that the baby was going to be a werewolf as soon as he came out of the womb, I mean why else would my sisters water break during that movie, why would the moon be so close and full? It had to be a werewolf. Im crazy, I know! Also when he was born he was super hairy. His little head was full of hair and the thing that influnced the nickname the most were his little ears. They were small but pointy and oh so hairy so he is my little warewolf hence the name WOLFIE!!!

His first haircut by my sister hahaha

He was a little scared but he got through it

His new haircut isnt he a doll!

My little man, my best friend my Wolfie!

Man I cant believe how time flies I want him to always love me as much as he loves me to this day. No matter how much of a brat he is, no matter how bad he acts nothing will ever change my perception of him, there isnt anything he can do to make me not love him. I want him to know that he can always count on me for anything and that I love him more than cupcakes and unicorns hahaha.

 I will always be there for you kiddo. I love you

HAPPY 2ND BITHDAY WOLFIE

Your aunt Christian loves you more than you will ever know!

Weekend recap

Tuesday yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
Im so glad Monday is over with. I usually am dragging every Monday but yesterday wasnt so bad but I was definitely still in weekend mode, I did not want to be at work. I made it through the day though thank the lord!!
My weekend felt so short. I guess it was because I usually spend both days with Mark lounging around and being goofey, but he had to work so I was flying solo on Saturday.
I dont know if I said it earlier but for a whole week I will be living with Mark at his moms house in Spring while they try to find the location of a mysterious leak that is ruining the walls of my apartment. So we moved some stuff over to his house on Friday and I have been staying at his house ever since. Of course this means that I have waffle with me, I cant leave my baby behind. So I was relocated to his moms room where there is a seperate bathroom , more room for my cat and a lock on the door so we can keep his blood hound away from my baby. Just thought I should throw that in so my Saturday recap makes sense.
Ok so Saturday was my sisters graduation. I didnt get her a present for graduation because Im having some financial issues lately (arent we all). So instead I told her that I would do her makeup for her graduation. She was excited, I felt like it was the least I could do. My favorite part of it all was probably getting to hangout with my nephew the wolfster!!! I have big dreams for him, he will one day be a stand up bass player for a big rockabilly band and I will support him the whole way lol. I think that would be a totally cute costume for Halloween, a little greaser (ah how freaking cute) we can totally work his awesome hair into a pompador.
Anyways so Saturday I wake up early because I have to be at mysisters house at 7am, so that means I have to be made up and ready before I head over there. So I wake up early and I needed to brush my teeth, Mark has already left for work and Im not sure where ladybird is so I close the door to the bedroom. As Im brushing my teeth I realize HOLY CRAP! I just locked myself out of the room. So i check it, and sure enough Im locked out. DAMMIT!!! So the only logical thing to do is try and pry the lock open with a knife. So I go get a knife and Im working it and I think I almost have it and I freaking break the knife and semi cut my thumb. What the hell am I going to do now? Ok I need a smaller knife so I go to Mark's room and I find a pocket knife and I use that. Well some how the knife slipped and I slice my finger open. Great, it hurt like hell and Im dripping blood all over the floor. I started crying and I realize Anthony (his room mate) is home. Maybe he can help me get back into the room. So I knock, Im crying at his door and nothing I can hear him in there snoring away!!! So having sliced open my hand clarity sort of hit and I was remembering how Mark sometimes forgets to lock the windows and I thought I might try the bedroom window. The only problem was it was 5 something in the morning, I was in a t-shirt and undies, no shoes and I was really scared. I took a pair of shoes from his room and I went outside luckily his dog went with me, I climbed the airconditioning unit and tried the window. Thank the lord the window was unlocked the only problem was climbing in because I was so short. So i hoped up and tumbled in and twisted my ankle and landed hard on my butt. The best thing was... I WAS INSIDE THE BEDROOM!!! yaaaay after that I got dressed, left and did my sisters makeup.
Ok so at the graduation my job was to take care of the baby. Wolfie is super duper spoiled by me! So after 20 minutes of sitting waiting for it to start he decided he was bored. So we left and played and ran around and I carried him, spun him around, chased him around and was just having a good time with him( in my cute new flower print platforms, trust me my feet were dying!!!). What I was really trying to do was wear him out so he could nap and I can see  my sister graduate. well after an hour and a half of trying it worked. I had to rock him standing up to put him to sleep. So I finally got to sit down. I saw my sister walk it was awesome, as we are waiting for all the other kids I could care less about I start feeling something really warm on my lap. Then i start to feel something run down my leg and wolfie wakes up crying. I grab him, sit him on a chair next to me and grab his diaper bag. He had PEED on me PEE was running down my leg, PEE consumed the chair I was sitting on, PEE was collecting in a puddle under the chair. I quickly wipe my leg, wipe the puddle grab wolfie and diaper bag and run to the restroom to change him. We fight he is deathly scared of the Koala changing table but I finally strapped him in and as Im changing him I notice there is blood on his leg and I started freaking out. I noticed blood on his arm and then his belly and then I realized because of fighting him I reopened my cut and blood is dripping from my hand. I changed him cleaned him, wrap my wound and I leave. The funny thing is that my dress is a weird material that dries realy quickly so by the time we got back to our seats my dress was dry. I then started to notice the slight smell of pee and I knew it was me, so I go to the restroom and wash my dress in the sink(only the part he peed on) and come out and the graduation is finally over. By the time we get to the car Im tired I wanna go home and change but we went to Olive Garden and ate and had a good time. My Saturday was hectic but my Sunday was so laid back. I love just lounging around and despite being peed on by him, I love love love my nephew. Today is his birthday he will be two.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOLFSTER

Cure for the Monday Blues

So Im actually at work pretty early!!! Yay ME!
I had a pretty busy weekend. Actually just a pretty stressful Saturday, but its all good yesterday made up for it. I shall elaborate on it later. Right now its time for the cure for the Monday Blues!!!

This is totally true hahahaha

Too cute, I think I want a tattoo of it lol

Now I understand why waffle is obsessed with my laptop

I want to go here and just have quiet time

I totally want this peaceful oasis in my backyard!!!

 I want to do this to my sewing machine, once I get one of coarse lol

I totally have to have these

 This is how I feel sometimes as a cat mommy

I totally want to make one for Mark to wear. He would look lovely, simply lovely in a bow tie

I need to get these nails done

Skins

Yaaaay Friday!!!

Im so excited I dont even know why. I woke up in a fighting mood though. Phew!!!
I had the weirdest dream that I was with a coworker and we found her husband cheating on her with someone 20 years younger and thinner. I was so livid in my dream I woke up ready to fight. Luckily Mark was at work hahaha.
Anyways Im excited. I have lost a total of 8 pounds since I started calorie counting. If I keep losing weight like Im doing right now by October I will be smaller than I was in high school. I have to stay motivated and add more excersise to my life. Right now I live such a lazy lifestyle. I guess it doesnt help that I have a sedentary job and I dont really move from my desk but I know I can do this. I can lose 8-10 pounds a month, it feels reasonable.
Do you ever day dream? I think Im a dreamer because as Im sitting here listening to Rilo Kiley Im imagining my life (how I want it to be) and its just making me smile. Im thinking about when I finish school, I will be working at a high end salon making a little more money than what Im making here and I will be doing something that I love to do. I will start to build up my clientele and promote myself to my clients so I can get more business. I want to one day be a freelance makeup artisit, I mean right now I already do makeup  but I want to get more clients, do bigger jobs and actually get out there in the fashion world. Ive always dreamt about being a makeup artist out in the fashion industry. Im going to Aveda this October and getting my license to be an esthetician and they focus on skin care and makeup. Once that is all said and done I want to take theater makeup and learn to do special effects makeup. I want to learn as much as I can about skin and makeup and make it big. Thats one of my dreams. Then I start thinking about Mark and my dream for him. I know that he likes his job because he makes good money, but he works his ass off doing what he does. Hes always so tired and he comes home dirty and sun burned and it just makes me so sad that this work is so strenuous and it just takes so much out of him. I want him to go back to school after the wedding and get a better job. One that isnt so labor intensive but makes the same amount of money as hes making or more. He wants to be a lead screamer in a post hard core band. Hes so silly, but thats his dream and he has so much built up anger Im pretty sure he would be good at it. Thats his dream and I will support him 100% if thats what he wants to do because he supports me with my dreams and thats the way it should be. Then I also dream about my life as a married woman at 25. God can you believe it Im going to be 25 years old this year. It scares me, when I look back I think to myself wow where did all the time go. I know that Iam heading in the right direction when I think about my life. So when I think about being married at 25 I just smile at myslef. Who would ever have thought that I would be getting married? Let alone at 25!!! Im pretty excited about that, I think that Iam most excited about my life with Mark. He wants me to be a stay at home wife and part of me want to do that too. But I guess I want to also be doing makeup can I do both? My dream life would be having my cute house with a picket fence out in the heights. Having an awesome front porch a quaint little garden in the back with an awesome deck. I want to have 3 kids 2 girls and 1 boy for Mark hahaha I want to be a stay at home mom for sure because I dont want to miss a moment of the lives of my little cupcakes and muffins lives! So i think about being a freelance makeupartist, a full time mommy and a house wive and I think Im excited about my life with Mark. I cant imagine anything better than that.
Im really excited Mark and I have decided to get tattoos together. I know that they dont go with the idea he has for his sleeve so he doesnt want them on his arm but I do so Mark will be getting his on his thigh and I will be getting mine on my arm somewhere. I am so stoked about the design and I cant wait to get them. I love tattoos. Im going to be such a rad looking bride, mom and wife I cant wait to get my life started.

A cool giveaway I must post about!!!!

What an amazing freaking giveaway!!! Ok so this adorable little blog I follow called Sometimes Sweet is having an amazing giveaway for all moms to be, moms or pretty much anyone in need of a cool modern looking high chair! Her blog is Sometimes sweet and she is an adorable stay at home mom of a lovely little boy. I dont know why Iam so obsessed with her blog, but Iam. I want to one day be the creative inspirational mother like she is. You should totally go and check out her adorable blog.
Ok now on with the giveaway!!!
She is giving away this badass highchair  by Boon

Boon is a really cool baby company, well its really mostly for helping parents. I think one of my favorite products is the frog pod. Its a little frog that is an organizer and toy drainer in one, for the bathtub. Its also super cute and not so boring like some other baby organizing products are. An important fact about the company is that they also donate 10% of profits to charities benefiting children in need.
This company started with one woman looking at her messy bathtub and creating the frog pod and now she has all these other cool products to help moms with parenting.
This giveaway is super cool because Danielle is giving away a rad looking highchair. Its the Flair pedestal highchair with pneumatic lift. This highchair has no cracks or hidding places for crumbs and its very easy to clean. The tray is dishwasher safe and comes in four different colors. It also has an easy lift so it can safely fit with your dining table, and just adjusts height wise easily because of the pneumatic lift.
Its retail value is $279.99 but the cool thing is that you can head on over to Sometimes Sweet and enter to win one of your own. You dont have to be a mother to enter you can be a friend of a mom to be, the sister of a mom to be (like me), a someday hopeful (also like me) and just try your luck.
Good luck to all who enter I hope some of you readers go to her blog and enter this contest, its alot of fun you really dont have anything to lose but you have a rad highchair to win!!!

Thank god its almost Friday

Im super duper excited. I get to hangout with a really good friend this weekend. The infamous Brittany Cross!!! Its going to be awesome! We had initially planned to go see our friend who just had a baby all the way in Beaumont. We were going to make it a fun little road trip but it was cancelled last night. It was cancelled because I had tonsilliits and Im just fresh off the meds and still recovering so I still have some germy germs and we dont want the baby to get sick. I feel sad because I really wanted to see baby Luke Austin but since he is still so fragile I dont think it would be a good idea to risk his health because of my selfish reasons hahaha.  So instead Brittany and I opted for drinks, lunch shopping and just hanging out, it sounds super fun since I havent really hung out with her since my birthday so Im definitely stoked. Some other exciting news is that I will be going to the Vans Warpped Tour this month. Its my first time going ever and Im really excited. I was initially going to go the year that The Used was playing and Circa Survive and it was postponed due to the weather and then when it was rescheduled The Used cancelled out on the Tour so I was like screw it now!!!  So I dont know what to expect this year, but some really good bands are playing that I actually like such as...
Hellogoodbye, 3OH!3, Against Me, Blood on the Dance Floor, Family Force Five, Jack's Mannequin, Lucero, Sum 41, The Dance Party and Unwritten Law.
I would also like to check out...
A Skylit Drive, Asking Alexandria, Attack Attack, D.R.U.G.S., Dance Gavin Dance, and Of mice & Men. Those are some of Mark's bands that hes always raving about and I want to see if I will ever get into the post hard core band thing or not. Im stoked!!! This week Iam working on getting my blog looking a little snazzy. Iam getting together with my friend Anitra and we are redesigning some things for my blog. Its all very exciting stuff hopefully it will be easier to read and it will all just flow perfectly together. I love the way my blog looks now but I would like more people to be able to read what I write. I also need to set a schedule about what this little blog is going to be about. When I started this blog I wanted my friends back at the bux to be able to read it and feel like we still saw eachother everyday and that they were a part of my everyday life, that they never missed a beat. I still want my friends and family to read it but sometimes my life just doesnt seem that interesting and I have like a bloggers block!!! Its really had keeping a blog, somedays you just dont have time and it seems like you just didnt care to post but that has nothing to do with it. Sometimes life just catches up with you and you kind of put the blog on the back burner, well this is what Iam going to try to avaid from here on out! So I need to have something to write about on the daily.
I have my Cure for the Monday Blues on Monday and thats it so far. I want to write about weddings but it seems like everyone has their wedding wednesdays I need to find a good day to write about my wedding and other weddings that inspire me. But other than that I have no clue what to write about.

HELP ME!!!

I survived Tonsillitis

Holy crap!!!

That is all that needs to be said.

I cant believe I was so sick for an entire week. It was the worse week of my life too. I was completely fine Monday and Tuesday morning I wake up with a semi sore throat, I thought I might have been doing a hell of a job snoring so I ignored it. I went to work and Im working, filing, making folders and then it hit me!!
I started to feel soooo bad, I even asked my boss if I started to feel worse if I could go home early. She told me to just leave at my lunch, she could tell I looked bad. So i did and it was all down hill from there.
I get home and I take a nice hot bath, I take everything out that I need to prepare Mark's dinner and then I passed out on the couch. I set an alarm to get up and Make his Spahgetti and meatballs(I didnt want my hard working babe to be hungry hen he got home), but if I hadnt I would have slept all day. I made his dinner and we ate and watched TV and then I wen back into the bedroom to sleep while he was being entertained by cartoon network. I woke up at around 10 something feeling awful. I had a headache, body aches and I felt like death. Turns out I had a fever of 103. Mark helped me break the fever and I slept, I made a Dr appointment and my mommy took me the next day.
What I came to realize this entire week was that no one will ever baby you when you are sick quite like your mom or grandma.
I am the biggest whinner when it comes to me being sick and I become and attention hog and a me me me child all over again. I want someone to baby me. I remember when I was sick as a little girl  my Tita( short for abuelita) taking care of me. She was the one I spent most of my time with because my mom had to work all the time. So she would be there for me always and I loved it. She would hold me if I was whiney, tell me how special I was, give me my medicine, watch movies with me, give me massages, rub vick's vapor rub all over my body, make me chamomile tea and just love on me. I miss thse days. I never had to ask her to do it either and Im pretty sure if I went over there today she would still be the same. I love her so much and not having her around made me so sad. I had Mark, but it definitely wasnt the same. I dont like to have to ask someone to baby me when Im sick I like them to do it without asking. The funny thing is my sister kept calling anc checking up on me and I have a feeling she is going to turn out just like my tita when her babies are sick, and that is awesome!!!
I love my tita so so much she is the best. My mom is pretty good but she cant top my granma in the babying department. Mark is trying, I guess its really hard when he has to leave for work at 5:20 in the morning and doesnt get home until 6pm and his body is tired from the manual labor hahaha. Poor guy Im pretty sure this past week was hell for him because I was a sick emotional rollercoaster.