Bite the bullet

So last Tuesday I made myself a list of goals that I wanted to accomplish this is what I have done so far...

• Make it to school with at least 10 minutes to spare Not so much because traffic is unbearable in Houston, I only got there with 5 mins to spare. I hope today its different dammit

• Not have any arguments with Muffin Nope I decide to nit pick at every damn thing which causes minor arguements :( Im trying to get better I swear!
• Not stress myself out about any little thing

• Try on wedding dresses to see which style best fits my body  Nope I got sick and just never got around to it plus I cry when I look at myself in the mirror now I just dont want to do that in public

• Cook at least 2 dinners (maybe only on weekends because during the week with school it will be way too late to eat)

• Wake up early and meet Julian Michael's in the living room for a before work workout Ugh why must I be so danm lazy, Muffin wakes me up every morning when he leaves for work yet I decide to roll over and continue to snooze :( tomorrow will be a different story I promise no more slacking

• Start training for my marathon I want to run (only on weekends) No I got sick and just didnt feel like getting out of bed, this weekend I promise Saturday and Sunda are made for running!!

• Wear makeup more often

• Try to look cute for work (at least look like I care about what I look like ;)

• Buy a new blowdryer and straightener Instead I saved my money and got my car fixed ;) definite win

• Go to a pumpkin patch or fall festival with Muffin and Britt This Im definitely going to do, it may not be with Muffin but I have my girl friends :) The monthi is still young lol hahaha

• Have our Disney movie party I know Muffin isnt going to be here for this but I can invite some girlfriends over and still do this :) eek like a girls slumber party 80s style lol

• Lose at least 10-15 lbs definitely doing this one I have a total of 31 lbs to lose before the end of this year I need to get crackin

• Eat in accordance to my diet  Nope I cant keep thinking about it as a diet bc thats how I fail, and nope Ive been eating junk :( so I fail

• Not fall off the wagon I dont think Ive fallen off completely bc I make healthy choices everyday its just some days Im too tired to care and I make one  bad   move
• Be a better person
• save at least 300 bucks
• blog everyday

I think all in all Im still doing pretty good maybe by next week I can scratch some of these off!!!

Bite the Bullet

so today Im thinking my list will consist of things I want to accomplish this month!!!

• Make it to school with at least 10 minutes to spare
• Not have any arguments with Muffin
• Not stress myself out about any little thing
• Try on wedding dresses to see which style best fits my body
• Cook at least 2 dinners (maybe only on weekends because during the week with school it will be way too late to eat)
• Wake up early and meet Julian Michael's in the living room for a before work workout
• Start training for my marathon I want to run (only on weekends)
• Wear makeup more often
• Try to look cute for work (at least look like I care about what I look like ;)
• Buy a new blowdryer and straightener
• Go to a pumpkin patch or fall festival with Muffin and Britt
• Have our Disney movie party
• Lose at least 10-15 lbs
• Eat in accordance to my diet
• Not fall off the wagon
• Be a better person
• save at least 300 bucks
• blog everyday

This list is for the entire month hopefully I can accomplish all of these I will update this list every Tuesday until the first Tuesday of next month when I post my new list of things I want to accomplish for the next month.
:)
Talk to you guys soon

Wake up its FRIDAY!!!

So today I woke up a bit inspired. I feel like I need to quit wallowing in self pity and do what I have to do to make myself a better person. I got to see Muffin yesterday for what felt like only an hour and I miss him so much.Now that he has actually been working a lot and eating out less I totally noticed that he is losing weight, which in turn makes me feel really gross about myself. So I have decided that instead of wasting time lounging around the house missing him I'm going to be productive. I'm going to start preparing multiple meals at night for the week when I'm not working at Chuy's and I have the whole night to myself. I'm definitely going to work out in any spare time I might have and I'm just going to focus on taking care of myself.

Goals for the next two months

• I wont be going out driving because I'm bored and spending money on gas

• I'm going to limit my smoking alot more and hopefully one day before I'm 50 I will have rid myself from all forms of smoking.

• I will be taking vitamins daily on top of taking probiotics, digestive enzymes and my daily dose of     B-12

•  I will only be drinking water unless I'm at a restaurant where I have the choice of teas never sodas, I will also be limiting my caffeine intake.

• I will be exercising in every free moment I have, I will try to go walk/jog around memorial park every night unless I'm working at Chuy's because walking at night alone could be quite dangerous

• I will be eating out way less unless its on a date with a girlfriend, muffin or my family

• I will be limiting my drinking alot more because its not that good for me to begin with and its expensive

• I will not be lounging around the house feeling sorry for myself because there are too many things that I could be doing other than that

• I will get back into hoola hooping

• I will try to go to the YMCA at least 3 times a week depending on my work schedule

• I will try to at least (minimum) to put 50 dollars into savings every week

• I will try not to eat junk food but once a week, and not over due it when I do

• I will stop sabotaging myself and not do harmful things to my body, I will not be self destructive again.

I decided to come up with a plan to better myself and my body. I feel like I have such a toxic body that its starting to affect my happiness and way of life, so if I start to eat better and take care of myself everything else will just fall into place. I feel like at 24 its time to grow up, use my brain and mature my life style. My health isn't the only thing that will improve by October you will see a happier more stable Christian Renee. I don't want to be depressed, angry or stressed out all the time anymore. I definitely don't want it to affect my relationship with Muffin, so I'm making this change before I spiral down again. I deserve to be happy, and its not just going to come knocking on my apartment door one day. I have to make that change and I start now.

Wish me luck guy because I know its going to be a long hard bumpy ride!!! I hope you have a great weekend, I know I will.

Its Cupcake and Muffin's 1 year anni tomorrow hopefully we get to see each other, I'm really really wanting to go see Rise of the Planet of the Apes... hopefully I do.

The big 2-5

                   

            Happy Thursday!!!!

So Ive been thinking alot about me turning 25 this year and it scares me. I cant believe Im going to be 25!!!
There are so many things I want to do.  So I have come up with a list of things I would like to accomplish before the big day. I guess its ok if I dont get to do all of them but I would really like to so here it goes, here is my list...

• Learn how to ride a bike
• Go hiking and have a really nice picnic with Mark
• Learn how to sew on a sewing machine
• Learn how to cook a delicious meal without any mistakes
• Start rollerblading and get good, so I can one day join a derby team
• Go to a drag show
• Go berry picking, it sounds so much fun and so delicious
• Have a really sexy photoshoot for myself that I can be proud of
• Start a scrapbook
• Go to A new Heart for XMAS
• Go to Chicago and visit Chris Romo
• Launch our online store (my mom and I) for baby stuff
• Launch my own store
• Learn more about cupcake decorating and buy more decorations and supplies
• Get more crafty and make more things for my online store
• Get more tattoos
• Stretch out my ears but keep them from blowing out
• Finally be completely detoxified and have an alkaline body

So far these are the things I want to accomplish before Im 25 which is in 5 mos hopefully I can do all of them but if not they can roll over and be goals before Im 26 lol


Here is some cupcake inspiration!!!

New plans for this year for a better me

Iam so sorry I didnt post yesterday I was tired and all I wanted to do was lounge around. Mark attempted to make an enchilada lasagna and needed my help frying tortillas so my lounging had to be postponed. I was totally planning on blogging too, as Mark was prepping his ingredients for this fine feast I was getting comfy on the couch with my laptop. What stopped me was his cursing because he couldnt fry the tortillas, so I couldnt just leave him to it alone I had to help.
So it came out pretty good, I must say but I know for sure it was not good for my dieting, thats for sure. I also made a hungrygirl version of cupcakes which came out pretty good, they were strawberry and delicious. The only thing I didnt like was that they crumble really easily. Today Im making chocolate ones and I hope they turn out a little better than the strawberry ones. I love hungrygirl she makes my life so much easier because I dont have to give up all the delicious food I love, I just have to modify it and thats where all of her recipies come in handy, she even does the points value if you are doing weight watchers. LOVE LOVE LOVE her.
On other news, I cant wait till the weekend comes because I will be going to the strawberry festival with my love. Ive always wanted to go and he listens to my wants and needs so well that he planned the trip for us and I couldnt be more tickled to go. I want to find a cute little sundress to wear but we shall see, lately everywhere I go they just dont have a very cute selection.
I am on the lookout for a good, diciplined, fun and motivating workout partner. I need someone to help me lose weight. I want someone to keep me motivated when Im ready to give up and fail, I need someone to encourage and congratulate my accomplishments and just keep me going. I will do the same and we can do it together and be team awesome. I had a workout partner but things just didnt workout between us. We had conflicting schedules and different priorities and I just havent heard from her so its time to move on. Ive been doing pretty good on my own but I just want to pump things up, meet new people and make new life long friends that have the same healthy lifestyle goals as I do. I just want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and see that beautiful woman my fiance always tells me that Iam. Right now I think she may be hiding inside a bit too much fluff but hopefully sometime this year I might see her shining through.
Im not a smoker, or a drinker and Im just working hard on changing my eating habits and working out to live a happier, healthier and longer life with my husband to be.