weekend update

I had the best weekend ever. I'm really starting to enjoy my weekends as of lately. Mark and I have been trying to save money but its proving to be harder than we thought. This weekend was just us hanging around each other all weekend.
I guess I shall start with Friday. Friday my mom and I had planned on going to see bridesmaids, but unfortunately we didn't get to. You see my mom loves to double book herself and sadly she had promised a friend that she would go to his graduation party. So we went and we just couldn't leave when we wanted to because I felt weird just coming to his party to chow down and then leave directly after. that would just make us look awful so we stayed till the end. Luckily it was a lot of fun. There were free drinks (which I didn't drink) good food and gambling. After the party I was missing my love muffin so I decided that I would stay the night at his house. I got to his house and changed, crawled into bed and the cuddlefest began... then I was out like a light.
Saturday... Saturday we woke up early because we had an appointment with the apartment complex Ive been drooling over. We got to the apartment complex early and went through the tour and Mark and I have decided that this will be our future home!!Its called Northgate Oaks and here are a few pictures of the complex we toured which will be the one that we get.

After that we went to eat at Waffle House to have a deliciously greasy breakfast. Waffle House is totally Yummmm and I ate all of my big breakfast, every last bite. Afterward we got things ready for Chessy's baby shower and he even helped me make my baby burritos and then we longed around for a bit until it was time for me to go to the baby shower. It was a lot of fun. I finally got to see Chessy preggers and by the way she totally looks adorable, she has the cutest preggers belly ever!!! We ate delicious pin wheels, cake balls and they even had a delicious raspberry mint punch. We played the fun baby shower games but they has some cool ones where we had to catapult bathtowls in the shapes of frogs ontp Lilly pads and we painted frogs.

I loved it it was alot of fun. Afterward Mark and I came back to the apartment and chilled for awhile until it was time to go back to his house.
Sunday... we woke up and I started the laundry and we watched "Its always sunny in Philadelphia" Its become one of my favorite shows it is just too funny!!! We went to the Mall to go look for jeans for me. I wish it was easier for a big bottomed girl like myself to find jeans. It was a struggle but I did it and I couldn't of done it with the help of my ever so patient loving sweet sweet fiance! Afterward we ran some errands and then came back to his house, ordered a pizza and watched Garden State. I had forgotten how much I loved that movie and it was such a great movie to watch with my love muffin!!!
This was my weekend and I am loving the normal simple lifestyle we have been living :)
I hope all of y'all had a great weekend!
lots of love, sunshine and cupcakes

ugh... I hate shopping for pants for a southern ass

Seriously what the hell is up with blogger right now? I just had to repost yesterdays blog!!! Not fun!!!
Anyways Iam not in a good mood today at all. I feel like I am not myself today. I just want to go home, go to bed and start all over. I put on my cute flower print dress I bought at forever 21 last week with Mark and holy cow I think it may have shrunk!!! It is super short, thank goodness Im wearing tights because its totally a micro mini dress today, regardless I look adorable. I had a really crappy night last night maybe thats why my day is turning out pretty terrible. I went to Target to go look for a baby shower gift for my friend Chessy but the stupid registry machines were boo boo so instead of making it a wasted trip Mark and I went to look for jeans. I have no jeans, I havent had jeans for like 2-3 months. It is so hard for me to find jeans that fit because I have the weirdest shaped body. I need jeans that are wide because my waist is wide, and so are my hips, but to be a little tighter at the thighs and are short. That is why I have such a hard time finding jeans for this southern ass!!Well I usually hate shopping for bottoms because nothing fits and I usually end up crying. I cant go to the store with my friends because they dont have this problem and I cant go with my mother because her jean fashion is way off and wants everything high waited and straight leg... ummm not so much mom thanks. Usually if I go with her sometimes she makes me feel worse about myself by telling me that Ive gained a little too much weight, criticizes my body and just makes me feel like crap so I have to for go this mission alone. Mark on the other hand wanted to help. This is one of the reasons I love him so much. He looked at the jean wall, all of the different fits and sizes and just picked some out that he thought would go with my body. We went to the family fitting room and tried things on. He didnt let me look at the tags and just said " ok, try them on" let me tell you some fit big, some fit big, some fit tight, some wouldnt even go past my thighs and the funny thing is... they were all the same size just different fits. But even after searching, matching waist size with different styles and fits I found not one pair of jeans. The size that I needed in the certain fit was no where to be foun. So Mark is making it his mission this morning to help me find a pair of jeans that fit and will compliment my body. I have never met a guy that doesnt make me feel insecure about my yo-yoing weight issues, and I am so happy to finally meet a man who worships my body just the way it is.
I love you so much my love muffin

Hit with fabulocity

Im feeling a little better today. I have to, I have another interview today with the school I want to. This is a very important meeting where they tell me how much Im getting for school and when I start!!! Iam so nervous I need all the money I can get. Last night was awful. I was fine up until the moment I stepped inside of Krogers thats when I felt weak and sickly :(
But I think I might be getting better.
Yesterday I had the most interesting conversation with my boss about gay guys and straight women.
I was telling him how I think its ridiculous for Mark to be jealous of my gay guy friends. He told me it wasnt. He said that men are extremely insecure, even though they have a tough exterior, they hide mostly all other feelings and just show anger.
He also said that boyfriends mostly get jealous of a gay mans relationship with their girlfriend because there is a strong bod there. A bond like no other bond, one that is stronger than that of her with her girlfriends and one that is stronger than the one she has with her guy friends because he can be both. Most women tend to love their gay friends and do many things with them that they dont do with other friends and there is always that possability that they are secretly in love with their gays. Women sometimes think to themselves " Man, if only he wasnt gay" Women would be set if their gay friends would be straight because they would have the best of both worlds, so thats why Mark and many other guys in these situations are jealous.

I for one have many gay friends and I love them all very much. I dont know what it is, but its true I feel so much more secure about myself when I am around them. Iam a very insecure person but when Iam around my gay friends I not once think Im ugly, fat, unstylish I feel perfect. I dont know what it is I am just comfortable in the skin Im in with them. I wish I could feel like that always, especially with Mark. I have also been in love with 2 of my gay friends but I came to my senses long ago about how that would ever work out so its always strictly friendship with all of my gay friends.
 I guess now I can see where Mark is coming from and I will try and stop his insecurities about me and my gays. I love them but I will never love them as much as I love my love muffin <3

Feeling sickly

Iam so not feeling good today, we just went shopping and I just feel super sickly so I shall leave you guys with a mixtape I made for my night drives. Some of these song I have just become obsessed with. I hope you guys dont get mad because its a playlist instead of an actual post. I love you all.

True friendship

So Im here sitting next to Mark as he is imitating the voice of Hank Hill and its really freaking me out. We just finished dinner and are just relaxing watching King of the Hill. I made chicken paella, it was super yum.
Ive been thinking a lot about the wedding and Im just so scared that I'am making the wrong decisions about some things. I also wonder if Im hurting some people because of my decisions. I just wish that things were different sometimes. I feel so alone right now and actually Ive been feeling pretty alone for awhile. I know I have Mark but a girl sometimes needs her girlfriends and right now that's exactly what Im missing. I have not been working at Starbucks for 2 months and I haven't been a full time Starbucks employee in almost a year. Not being there all the time has made me feel like Im losing the most amazing friends I have ever had. I haven't really had much communication with them I miss my friends so much, I don't know if its just me but I feel so left out of their lives and it just hurts so much. I feel so alone, I thought that leaving Starbucks would be better for me and it is, financially but its detrimental to my friendships I had made there. I thought that when I left things were still going to be the same between us but I feel like Im the one putting in all the effort and Im just tired of a one sided friendship. Now since Ive quit trying, its not like it made anything better. Now I don't hear from any of them at all, its like whatever happened between us. I feel like when I see them  now its like we are complete strangers and we are just drifting apart and that is not something Ive ever wanted.
I have been through a lot of hard times and some of those girls were there for me at my weakest most darkest moments in life and I wish they were still with me so I wont have to face these rough times alone.
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I've managed to let many people slip out of my life that I was close to and I still miss them. I don't want these people and a select few Ive made in college to never ever part. I just want them to be a part of my life for the rest of my life. I hope things get better between us and things will go back to how they used to be because even though I have Mark i still miss my friends. 

""  It is crazy to think how different your life would be if you never met those few people 

that changed everything"     - Anonymous 

"" A friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself"     - Jim Morrison 

"  Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave but impossible to forget"     - Anonymous

Picture Montage

Here are the pictures that I promised I didn't want to have a picture overload so I picked a few from the 78 in my camera.

Oh what a weekend

Lets talk about my weekend..
Ok so on Thursday... Cindo de Mayo I took a half day at work because my cousin and I were going to go to Galveston and drink it up. Well after talking to Mark and remembering that awful incident that happened and could have gone far worse I decided against going. I didn't feel comfortable getting drunk far far away from Mark and not being able to come home and spend a good night with him. So I canceled on my cousin. Also that creep who is phone stalking me and possibly stalking me around Houston kept me from going to far away from my super protective fiance. So instead I decided to go to the Continental with one of my old friends Eric to go see Beetle a Beatles cover band. It was fun. We listened to a good band and drank and then ate. Good times with good friends. I had missed him so much it was great getting to hangout with him again. That same night Mark and I were going to go to the midnight showing of Thor. When I got home he was still in his boxers, we had an hour to get to the theater. I get upstairs and he lays back in bed. So just because I didn't come home at 9pm like I said I was going to he is all upset because we have practically missed the showing. Sometime Mark can definitely be ridiculous. I gave up on insisting and begging to go to the movie, I just thought that it would be a fun thing to do together but he wanted to be mean so I went to sleep.
The next day was Friday and I was sooo excited because I was going to spend the entire day with my maid of honor and best friend Chris. It was a lot of fun we ate at Chipotle, and then went shopping. Lets see... we went to JoAnn's fabric store to look for a design for the bridesmaid dresses and we found one that I really liked and so we went to price it and found a little shop that would make all of the dresses for 150 each!!!
I'm excited. We also went to go eat a cupcake at this really cute cupcake shop called sugar babies. Omg this place is so darling I loved it, it was very Marie Antoinette and I wished I could live there. There was only one problem the cupcakes were awful! AWFUL. I love love love cupcakes and this is why Chris wanted to have my bridal shower there but as soon as I tasted the cupcakes I thought again. I definitely don't want to have my bridal shower there. I want to have maybe 25 people total and I want to have it at a place where we can eat drink and celebrate ME! I want the place to be very dainty and fun that cupcake shop would have been perfect if it weren't for their disgusting pieces of dried out bread they called cupcakes. After that we went to go look for the perfect will you be my bridesmaids cards? I think I will be better off making them myself. I found a card that Im just not so in love with. its a card with a pink caddy on it but it just doesn't scream CHRISTIAN so Im thinking Im going to return them and have one of my friends work on them with me, maybe my mom shes a pretty crafty lady. After that we went back to the apartment so we could talk some wedding trash and then I had to take her home. I love Chris she is like my other sister. I then left to go get my oil changed because I was 2months overdue and that was fun. I had fun talking to the shop owner about my car and how much it would cost to fix this or that. I really wanted a new car like the cute new Honda CRZ but I know right now that with the wedding and everything I just wont be able to get it. So my plan is to fix up my car and just keep it looking good and pay it off then trade it in for my CRZ after the wedding!!!

After the oil change it was time to go to Mark's so I drove on over and we went to go eat some BBQ because I was craving a chicken baked potato like a pregnant woman! I usually dont like BBQ but for some reason I have become obsessed with sweet tea and baked potatoes. After dinner we went to go see Thor, I must say it was a pretty good movie I really loved it, but I think my favorite part was being able to hold Mark's hand or cuddle with him through out the entire movie. :)
Hmm so Saturday we woke up and we had to run some errands. So we went to go eat breakfast at Denny's I don't know what it is but I hate eating breakfast food. I feel weird when I do but once just once I will go to a Denny's, IHOP or waffle house and order breakfast!!! Saturday I didn't :( After breakfast we headed over to the Woodlands to go see Fast Five but were a wee bit early so we headed over to go pay the last of my Macy's bill. We saw the movie. I liked it but Mark not so much. He said that if it wasn't affiliated with Fast and the Furious he would have liked it because it was action packed but it didn't have any racing so he felt like it didn't live up to his expectations. After the movie we just shopped around. I was looking for a couple of dresses I could wear to work and maybe a new purse but this weekend just wasn't my weekend to shop because I found nothing.  So instead we went to Hobby Lobby where I bought patterns to make an apron, more thread and some other crafting goodies. I'm sooo excited. I want to learn to sew so bad so I'm thinking that I will pay for a weekend sewing class for beginners soon. We headed to the apartment because I wanted to go have a night picnic and just maybe roam the streets of Houston. Anabelle didn't have anything to do so she joined us and it was a lot of fun. We got to Herman park and then realized that they were having a show and we had just missed it but they are going to have one this weekend so I guess you know what Mark and I will be doing. Picnic and a show, oh how romantic he he he!! I cant wait. there are a few picture but I will post them later along with the ones from last Friday I promise. After our walk we came back home Anabelle left and we passed out. Sunday... Mothers day. We went to my moms house and we gave her a card and loved on her and watched some bridal reality shows with her. It was fun I love watching goofy things like that with my mom if it wasn't for the laundry and wanting to spend time with Mark I would have just kicked it with her and just watched the tube. So Sunday... I washed clothes, went to get movies and food and just lounged around and watched movies. then after everything I came home alone to the apartment put all of the clothes away and passed out. I had a great weekend spent very well with the love of my life!