Spending a little quality time alone

So I usually always have to spend most of my time with other people because I never like to be alone. Well this morning was a little different. I got up early to take Waffle to SNAPS to get him neutered. I feel so bad doing this to him but he has become such a buttface!!! He is so mean, sometimes when I try to pet him he gets crazy and he bites me and scratches me. I didn’t know how to get him to stop, but someone told me that if I got him fixed his behavior would change a lot. So I’m hoping and wishing that this is true and he’s on his way to get neutered. SNAPS is a non profit agency on my side of town that does procedures like this at a pretty decent price because they want to stop the suffering and death of dogs and cats because of over population and preventable diseases. So I had to make an appointment for them to see Waffleito!!! So anyways I get dressed and put waffle in his kennel and he’s ready to go we are on our way. He loves car rides he gets super excited and behaves so well so it’s always fun having him along for the ride. So we get there I’m in line and I show them his paper and the lady tells me I’m sorry hunny his appointment was yesterday!!! WTF!! I can’t believe I missed his appointment, I was so caught up with work and everything else that I got my days confused. How funny! Anyways so we drive back home and I was supposed to meet Mychael at 1pm because we were going to go shopping for our New Years outfits. So I had tons of time to kill. I really wanted to go see Black Swan so I call An, one of my gay best friends and he doesn’t answer. I call Mark, he doesn’t answer. I call Mychael and she doesn’t answer so I guess I’m going to fly solo. I had never gone to the movies alone but people tell me that it’s really fun so I thought to myself… why not! I get there and the movie starts at 11am so I got matinee pricing which was AWESOME! Since I haven’t eaten anything I’m pretty hungry so I buy curly fries and a diet coke yumm!!! So I’m in my theater, I’m seated,  there aren’t many people in the theater to judge me for being alone and I’m quite comfy. I watch the movie, eat my curly fries and drink my diet coke and I’m entranced. The movie was AMAZING. I can’t even fathom how much I like the movie it was intense and extremely awesome. When I left I felt so weird, it was a combination of feelings. I felt drunk and a part of me felt like the black swan, confident and sexy. I get out of the theater and I look at my phone and I had 2 missed calls from Mark and 1 from Mychael. Thanks for being all late guys!!! But all in all it was an amazing experience. I will definitely do this again. Why? Because no one is there to talk to you, interrupt the movie and you can give the film 100% of your attention I recommend this whole heartedly!!! Ok guys I have to start getting ready for tonight!!! Have a happy New Year

A DIY Christmas

Do you think Im a Drama queen? I don’t know I feel crazy at times, like for example my last post but I had to get it out I couldn’t just let it keep building up and building up. When I let it keep building up its like caging a monster, its not really a pretty sight once its unleashed and I really dont like to make Mark feel bad about anything but when Im angry nothing stops me. Sometimes its not even him, sometimes its the people at work and I just take it out on him it really isnt fair and thats something I will work at in the new year he he he. After I posted that last post I went and took a long hot calming bubble bath and I felt amazing. I felt like nothing could piss me off then, I continued to make the presents for my family and I listened to the Beatles and I was just lost in my own dream world. I didn’t really want to spend money this year on Christmas presents but I did… on Mark.

Ha ha ha I bought him a cute cigarrette case that is a zombie comic book. I actually got it custom made from a girl off of an etsy shop. I love etsy its becoming my favorite place to shop. I also custom made him some zombie sneakers. They are custom made adult keds. They turned out really bad ass. Those i got from zazzle. Then I also got him 2 tshirts one was from night of the living dead it was super bad ass and the other is from another movie but I cant remember from where right now.

  Look at the excitement in his face that alone is worth not having extra money, thats shows me that all of my spending was worth it, just to see this face. I love him sooo much

I felt super guilty when I really didn’t have money left over for my family so I decided to get a wee bit crafty.

For my sisters Kaitlyn and Allie I made delicious chocolate covered pretzels. They were yummy and cute I drizzled them with white chocolate I dyed cotton candy pink. They were very girly and cute. 

For my mother I actually bought her gift and made her something too. I bought her a cute necklace pendant and inside that pendant there was a tiny mustard seed.

The story behind the mustard seed is like from 2 years ago.

It was my birthday and she had just spent alot of money taking me and my 2 best friends Sarah and Haley out to lunch along with Coral and her mom, and my moms admin Marilyn. She took me out to lunch and afterward I just wanted to go shopping at the Galleria. So there we were shopping and she really didn’t have any money to be spending on me but she took me into a very expensive jewelry store. We were just browsing when I noticed a really pretty pendant of a HAMSA that I wanted so we went to one of the employees to inquire about the price… turns out that baby was worth 800 bucks. I told my mom to forget it but she kept insisting that she could get it for me even though I knew very well that she couldn’t afford it. We continued browsing and then she looked and saw this pendant of a mustard seed and she started reciting something to herself. Then she recited it out loud and I thought she was crazy. She started telling me the story of the mustard seed ad I just laughed at her. I saw that she felt really bad afterwards and I just reminded her that Im not as religious as her so that mustard seed mumbo jumbo meant nothing to me. So instead of talking more about that she kept insisting that I take the pendant and I wouldn’t and then she told me that one day she wants to get a pendant of the mustard seed to always remind her how much faith she already had or needs to have when she feels like everything is going wrong.

Mustard seed verse Mathew 17:20
“He told them, "Because you have so little faith. I can guarantee this truth: If your faith is the size of a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

So this year she got one I also made her drunk bears. Which are gummy bears soaked in a lot of alcohol.

For my grandparents I made them a giant container of honey roasted assorted nuts. I did it myself and they turned out awesome!!!

My stepdad I made a cheesecake and then for everyone I made Sangria. It was a DIY Christmas at the Moreno-Conner household.

We had a lot of fun I got a workout jacket, shirt and pants, a body lotion set, these awesome gloves to wash dishes so my hands don’t dry out, money from my grandparents and a pair of really amazing burlesque shoes. They are pink rhinestone bordello pumps.

My mom even got Mark a Christmas present. It was a super huge sleeping shirt that says wheres my zombie and when you lift it up to your face, its a zombie face. Mark really had a cute zombie Christmas. My grandmother even made him a stocking with his name on it. I guess he is officially part of the family.

The food was really good my stepdad cooked and he is a culinary genius lol, so I was super stuffed. After dinner my stepdad and grandparents took turns on the piano it was funny.

All in all it was a great Christmas its so depressing I was so angry and worked up earlier over nothing.

 

Iam so livid right now its time to do a little venting!

Ok so I’m going to do a little venting!!! Ok so this is the situation…

My boyfriend Mark is in oil construction which means he is out of town most of the time L sad I know I freaking hate it.

If I knew back then what I know now there is no way I would have let him take this god awful job. Anyways, when he is in town

I like to be a little selfish with his time here I mean he is my freaking boyfriend I want all of his attention, I want his freaking world

to revolve around me. But grant it I work two flipping jobs to have an average lifestyle. I work two jobs ok so our time is very limited

and when I have my days off I want him with me at all times. Even when I work a double I would still like to come home and have him

next to me, I hate coming home to an empty house. I know it’s not really empty because I have waffle but waffle can’t freaking hold me

and he hates cuddling so I have to live with his coldness!! So when Mark is home is this really too much to freaking ask for? No I didn’t

think so! What does he occupy his time with you say? His freaking dogs I know I’m just being a drama queen but on the days that I can

spend most of my time with him he freaking leaves to go spend time with his dogs and it freaking irritates me. Is this healthy in a relationship

like mine? I really have no clue because this is the longest relationship I’ve ever been in and right now Iam feeling so lonely , angry and abandoned but I have a boyfriend. No matter how much I tell him I really don’t think he will get how I feel and he always gets mad and says “Well what? do you

want me to get rid of her?” of course I do!!! I really don’t mean that or maybe I do I don’t freaking know right now. But if he keeps doing this I don’t

know how much longer I can take its like he always has to put that freaking dog before me and I hate her!!!

So here Iam alone on Christmas Eve and it’s the night that my family celebrates Christmas and where is Mark…. With his fucking dog! You better

believe I’m pissed!!!

Ok Im done thanks for listening

Christian's fabulous celebration partie deux

Well the second day of my birthday celebration was a lot of fun and no alcohol. We started off getting ready and then realizing that Brittany had left her credit card in a friend’s car so we had to get ready and haul ass all the way to sugar land. I was so hungry and sick by the time we made it to Sugarland. After we retrieved her card we all went to have breakfast at IHOP. I hate IHOP but everyone loves that damn International House Of Pancakes so we had to stop. I ended up finding something I would eat and then we went off to the more traditional part of my birthday. We headed out to the zoo. I don’t know I felt so sick that day I really wasn’t in the mood to be around a group of people. All I really wanted to do was lay on the couch by Mark and watch TV and pretty much sleep all day. But I got through it all like a champ.

I think I try to lick his face too often

Brittany always makes the goofey faces

Sitting on Mark by the Christmas Tree

Mychael looking like someone stunned her 

Cheesing for the Camera

I had so much fun with these guys

in some little hut after I scared a small child

 Brittany as cute as ever. I dont think this girl ever looks ugly

 Grabbing his cute butt

 Can you tell who is who in the tiki masks

 Kissing under the cute entry way

 In Brittanyy's car after an entire day of walking

We had a lot of fun at the zoo by the end of it all we were soo freaking exhausted. We wanted to go get coffee, we were going to get Starbucks but since our store is so far away and Starbucks drinks are expensive we decided that McDonalds was a better choice for our pockets. So while we were there we decided on getting something to eat too. So we all got Happy Meals yay. I was super excited about this because supposedly we were supposed to get Hello Kitty surprises and everyone knows how much I love that mouth less cat so we all got one except for Mark because he wanted real food. J

So Brittany and I decided on Hazelnut Iced Coffee to get our caffeine fix and I must say I liked it after tweaking it for a bit it was pretty freaking good. Damn you McDonalds for being our competition.

Anyways after all the built up excitement I get my Happy Meal and get my toy and they totally freaking jipped us. There was no freaking Hello Kitty McDonalds has built an empire of lies dammit. I was so sad because instead what I got were pink Barbie bangles. I wore them of course with all their pink glory but it definitely doesn’t compare to Hello Kitty. At least I wasn’t Brittany who got an action hero instead because clearly they saw past her cute girly exterior and realized what a lesbian-ish boy she really is. I love you and all your manly-ness Britt!

Her what the Deuce face ha ha ha

After lunch we headed out to the Galleria for some shopping. I had a Sephora gift card burning a hole in my pocket and I had to remedy that. I also had cash since we just had gotten paid and I wanted to treat myself to some birthday treasures. Oh how I love to shop especially at Torrid, Forever 21, MAC and Sephora!!!

After the Galleria I was definitely tired and we went back to the apartment and Brittany hung around for a bit but then everyone left and it was just Mark Waffle and I. So we watched TV and chilled for a bit and then had some super happy fun time!!! I love my love muffin!!! I also love waffle we have a cute little family.

Laying on the floor Trying to capture her cute quickie makeup job I did on film

Brittany posing with waffleito 

Im a cat Im a kitty cat and I dance dance dance and I dance dance dance

Trying to get him to take a picture of just his beautiful eyes

Exhausted after dancing

limp cat doesnt want to move

We are such a happy little family